Juz now take amaths mock test.Since i take early so i finished early.Den mdm tan mark a few qn on the spot.WTH!!!I got some of the qn wrong.Careless mistakes.Can use calculator also calculate wrongly haiz..

I got 72 for overall mock ppr tat i took last fri...Although took it wen i am sick but this time the marks are more statisfying.Although ader cg yg compare2.I think is not wat i did but who mark it.First mock test i finish the compo and get only 34 marks - 2 full pages of compo.This time round,i got 36 marks for an unfinished compo - 1 and 3/4 page of compo on foolscap.I think it's the teacher...hmmm...

Only If U Noe..

It's not fair wat? U judge us based on wat u have plan for us and not wat we have plan for ourselves.In the first place u guys are the one who wanted to separate us into three diff class based on our grades.We did not even agreed to it.The real fact is we are not even given a choice or to voice out our opinion.You guys made the final decision.Now,u are blaming us for not getting distinction as wat you have hope for?We don't even want to be in the first class cos we are aware of the pressure tat we have to face frm teachers and peers.Therefore,we rather had our class remain as last year.

U think we like to fail?u think we did not want to get a distinction?Wat u voice out jus now,somehow hurt us.Was it really our fault?Wat about the pprs tat were not marked?wat about the teachers being absent often?Our fault?Maybe no one was at fault?...MAYBE....

If no one was at fault,then y do u have to made tat kind of remark?Try putting ureselves in our shoes.Wat do u feel?Angry ?sad?pressurized?dissapointed?happy? wat?Jgn nk step mcm tau semue bende but padahal...padahal.

If u wan us to get a distinction,we also want to achieve it.
Don say tat we have not worked hard for it cos we have work hard enough.
Don say that this is for our own godd,wen we did not see it as something that is good for us.
Don say it is our fault ,wen it is not clear whose fault was it actually.
Don put such high hopes on us cos we are afraid that u might fall and hurt ureself as we have dissapoint u,Eventhough we did not promise it.

This weekend,I didn't do any revision.Spend the whole time reading Novels.Nothing to talk much actually about this weekennd ....

The worse dae.....

I thought eating polo will ease a little bit of the pain in the throat but it got worse instead.
Jus now,in the morning,wen i wake up i realise that i have lose my voice.I have no voice!!!
Then decided not to go to skool.Ask mum for money then go to the polyclinic.At the polyclinic,I met Rasis who is also sick.Bcos I don have voice,so nvr talk much wif Rasis.Waited for 1 hour + before get to see doctor.Take medicine then go home.Felt so miserable wif no voice.I could onli nod and shook my head.

In the afternoon ,went to skool to take mly mock ppr.I did not finish my compo cause spend so much time deciding on the question.Ppr 2 was hard.The comprehension was tough.U got to think out of the box.

Thanks to my frends tat is concern about me....Thanks to Afiqah.Nabilah,Hummairah ,Faiqah,Zarifah and the rest foe being concern.

2mrrw can't go n watch "Jangan Tegur" cos still having fever and sorethroat...

Anw,I have my voice back...Hooray!!!!!Although not back as per normal but at least can talk already...

Want to rest now....

Y?

Y do u have to chase after something tat u are not sure of tat is goin to be urs?
Y must u wait for something tat is not likely to happen?
Y must u put on such a high hopes ,after u have know the whole truth?
Y must i keep believing in u after u have lied to me numerous times?
Y must i keep waiting.....?
Being naive, i kept waiting for u 2 come back...
but the real fact is ..... u would never come back.

In the dark,
where there is not even a single ray of light,
I was lost.
I can't find the way out.
I was stuck.
Waiting 4 u to save me.
But u never appeared.
Now then i knew, u nvr reli care...
I tried not to trust the rumours that spread like wild fire.
Because i trust u...
But looks like u ,ureself, robbed away the trust that i have for u....

worse

todae only got ss lesson ...mdm tan and mdm howe nvr come...if i know only got ss lesson todae then i will also nvr come seh...waste time in sch onli...

got fever since last nite...starting to lose my voice already...haiya..planning 2mrrw don wan to go 2 sch...afternoon den come to take mock test...but don know la....

Moment in life

I read tis .

"Malam muncul lagi membawa seriibu cerita yang ditinggalkan pada siang hari.Esok bila matahari terbit kembali maka bermulalah sejarah baru dlm hidup ini.Kita harus belajar meelupakan kisah semalam yang penuh duka untuk mengejar kebahagian hari esok."

It's quite true somehow.
Eng translation:

"The night appears again bringing thousands tales that was left behind in the day.Wen the sun rise 2mrrw , it marks the new chapter in life.We have to learn to forget the sorrow of yesterdae to chase after the rejoicing moment ,tomorrow."

sick

Todae reli tired..Goin to fall sick soon.Been having sore throat since last nite.Thanks to my sis 4 passing down her virus to me.Now i'm having headache.

Many teachers todae are on leave.Sick.Mdm Tan was unwell and decided to go home at 12 noon.She gave us ws to do during the whole 4 period.

Headache...headche...auch....!!!

Todae i see the furious side of Hakim.He was angry with someone bcos of a maths ppr.He then punch the board behind the classroom.Come on lah! It's only a maths paper....or maybe its a big deal to u...yah...maybe if i am facing with the similar situation i will also be angry..but not until vent my anger on the board...vent it on the person lah y vent it on the board? haiya...

Sometimes it doesn't pay to be kind...

Still deciding on wether want to go n watch "Jangan Tegur " or not...hmmm.....

Want to rest now...

No Money!

i nid to save up my money to watch the movie "Jangan Tegur" ,tis sat...
currently have $12...
Mom haven pay me back $8 4 class photo.
This means i will have around $ 20 ...Must save up a little bit more....
On sat i will ask frm her another $5 2 top up ez-link....

$8 - movie ticket
$6 - food
$5 - top up ez-link.
total money needed arnd: $19....

hmmm...

looking forward to tat dae....

Dropping

Arghhhh! My mly result is dropping.I got only 69 marks for P1 +P2 mock exam. 1 more marks to dinstinction.Reli frustrated.I'm not happy with my mly result this year.It kept dropping.This Fri ggot another mock ppr.Donnoe can do well or not.If my mum know about tis surely kena nag.Tk psl2 nanti dpt syarahan percuma.Must do something about it......

Help Me!

14 more daes

Exams are just around the corner .In fact,14 more daes to MYE.Starting on revision alredi but donnoe got confidence on passing or not.

This yr i have been struggling to ace on my malay.My MT result have been dropping.Imagine i've nvr failed my mly composition and now suddenly i failed the composition.I also fail 1 of the class test.Is it bcos of the sudden change of teacher?i donnoe.Reli worried wether can maintain distinction for mly in MYE or not.haiz...must pray hard...

Other than MT i'm also worried for my chemistry subject.I don even remember a single thing tat was taught last yr.This yr also i don quite understand the topics tat the teacher teach..

Hope can pass this yr MYE.

fed up

Watever!

Org mcm ko pun ader seh pat dunia ni..
membohong tk agk2...
den action baik lak...
Hipokrit siak...

Juz now,during p.e lesson, mr sng asked my class to blog about the last NAFA test for girls this yr.I find him hilarious todae.Wen we are having our shuttle he made his individual comment on each of us.He also say "this is ure last run".Wen we are having our inclined pull-up he say "this is ure last pull".haha...

If u think that i am goin 2 b hurt by that incident, i 'm telling u tat ure WRONG!
I know wat is it like getting hurt and being hurt.
I have fall from greater heights that is tall enough to destroy my life.
I have healed that wound and i knew that although that wound was healed ,it left a scar on it.
I have reached the destination in life where the pain was unbearable.
I have taste all of it.
So if u think tat incident gonna hurt me and break my heart,u are totally wrong.
I have experience a harder and hurtful situation than this.
I have gone through the path that has shattered my heart into pieces.
So tat so call "a big incident" to u ,was nothing to me..
Cos the previous fall that i had had made me a much stronger person than before.
Hence, the next fall that i had doesn't hurt tat much.

PS: to tat somebody, if u want to hurt me , use a better way to hurt me.A way that the impact will be an excruciating pain. That incident doesn't leave any marks on me .Sorry 2 disappoint u for all the effort that u have put in and the plan that u have made to hurt me.

tat promise u make

I f u noe u can't keep ure promises den y do u make a promise? y do u let me build such a beautiful dream ? y do u have to make empty promises?

Promises are like snowballs....very easy to make but hard to keep....

u noe wat..???
u have changed..
wat?u don realise it?
now i'm telling u..
u have reli changed.
how?
ure not u animore.u have become someone tat i do not noe.
mayb u don realise it but i do.

todae

todae got a lot of test.ss test,i nvr do finish..write out all factors alredi den don have time to write conclusion.den after that got emaths test.the test is okay as in i can do.then afternoon got amaths mock test.damn difficult.got few question nvr do den got some anihow do.as long do can alredi wat.then after mock test @ 5.30pm ,got to noe the emaths test result.i got 30/40.pass can alredi lah.

now want 2 go to sleep ...very tired....

i finally understand.

u once told me that u are going to sacrifice ure happiness 4 the one u love.facing it now might not be easy.although we are gd frends , sometimes i do not knoow y u have to take such a drastic action just to c them happy..kau sanggup berjuang to get them together back again and u let ureself be hurt and suffer.seriously speaking i do not understand u...i tried to ...now i finally understand y u did this...namun demi sape ko juangkan semua ni?u ? him? or her?

wishing u happiness....

haiz...

reli2 tired...can't afford to face tis challenges animore.do not have the strength to see everything happening in front of me.tat time i said "if this is a dream i wanna wake up now." , cos i am afraid that if all the happiness that i achieve is only a dream.i want it to b a reality! but rite now i would like 2 say :"if tis is a dream ,let it just be a dream i don't mind if i didn't wake up." i am too afraid to face the hurdles in front of me after wat had happen jus now.

If tis is a dream let it jus b a dream....

too tired...

reli2 tired...

juz now

Jus now got sci test .Damn difficult.but chem test is easier than phy test.Hmm..nt sure can pass or not..jus hope can pass.

Wat the hell ...jus now i 4get to give my sis key.then she had to wait for 1 hr outside the house.After the test i realise i had 49 missed call frm my sis...like wat the hell ...49! I am sure she tried so hard to get through me.wen i came home she was damn angry.